I have been dealing with a lot of personal dramas, one of which I wrote a little poem about. I normally don’t write poetry, but I was up most of the night and felt this intense desire to share my experience with others. This is the first poem I’ve written in years, so keep that in mind as you read this. Peace.

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Temptations
by Natasha Pierre-Louis

Your are so beautiful,
Why didn’t I notice you before?
You are delightful,
Your presence moves me to the core.

I want to touch you,
but that probably wouldn’t be fair.
You don’t belong to me,
your owner’s standing over there.

But I don’t mean no harm,
I have no intent to steal…
No need to sound the alarm,
I simply wanted you to feel…

I promise I won’t take
something that doesn’t belong to me.
I promise I won’t break
someone else’s property.

Alas, I better go,
The temptation to steal you is so strong
That person doesn’t know
but my intentions are so wrong.

Maybe one day you’ll be
free to come home and live with me.
Till then we’ll wait to see
if you are truly my destiny.

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I came back home and worked a little more until I started to get sleepy. I saved my file, but then my system froze. “No big deal”, I thought to myself. I then did a forced restart and went to bed.

This morning, I was up by 8am and ready to get back to work. I did my lil morning routine, got myself some grapes and checked my emails. Then I fired up Photoshop and was ready to go. I open up my file, only to see a black page with red stuff on it, no layers to be found.

“This must be some kind of error,” I thought. So I restarted Photoshop, but still the same deal. I did a lil searching around in Google only to find out that others have experienced the same thing before, and that my file got corrupted. After trying many PSD recovery software, I came to the conclusion that my work may be lost forever.

I then decided that it was time to do a disk check. This caused some issues at first, but I was finally able to run it. Unfortunately when it got to stage 5 of 5, I got a “Hard Fail”. I then did a Bios diagnostic test and that also failed. To make a long story short, my hard drive is dying. I am just grateful I caught it in time.

Between this morning and now, I can honestly say that I experienced the 5 stages of death, but in this case it is the slow death of my hard drive:

1. Denial – For 2 hours straight I was in a state of denial that my file may actually be corrupted and was hell bent on correcting the problem.
2. Anger – This is when it got really interesting. I came really close to throwing my laptop across the room at least 10 times today. Really close.
3. Bargaining – I then prayed that God would work a miracle and fix my file. I promised that I would create a back up in case this should ever happen again. No such luck.
4. Depression – I then got really sad. I am still really sad.
5. Acceptance – I finally accepted that this kind of stuff happens. At least I can say I learned something from all this – to always back up my work files on a separate drive. Silver lining in the cloud? Maybe.

   I then proceeded to back up my files on an external hard drive and called the warranty company to ask them to send a box. The tech guy was annoying and kept asking if I did a recovery. I had to help him understand that I was almost certain that my issue was more of a hardware issue rather then a software problem. He eventually saw it my way and my box is in the mail.

So the moral to the story is: Get other people to do design work for you so that you don’t have to deal with this BS. No Seriously, please learn from my mistake and keep a backup of your work files on a separate hard drive. Ok?

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To start off, Happy Independence Day everyone!! I hope you have a safe and fun weekend. The development for this site had to be put on a temporary hold as I had a bit of a stomach issue the past couple of weeks. This weekend, I feel better then ever and am ready to pick up where I left off.

Yes that’s right, while you all over do it on ribs and barbecue chicken, I will be at my computer, working on my site. But I do have every intention to not miss any fireworks tonight. Be safe.

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